Turn and Face the Strange Ch-Ch-Changes

Note: This is a continutation of my previous post “When She Walks it’s like a Samba”, found here:

http://nosuya.wordpress.com/2008/08/15/when-she-walks-its-like-a-samba/

(regular post)

I think I should mention my tastes in Music are becoming a little more sophisticated. I mean, yeah every now in then, I listen to a bad disney song (part of yooouuurrr woooooorrrrllllldddddd), but overall it’s changing. Like, I ran out of room on my ipod, so I had to delete some songs. Well, alot. Like 111 out of my 160 Jpop songs. Currently have 49 left.

It’s weird, like I still like Jpop, but when I hear that Perfume or Koda Kumi have a new single out, I don’t go and listen to it, like I used to. I just go “Oh really? Cool” and leave it at that. I just don’t care for it that much anymore. When I deleted music off of my ipod, I didn’t hesitate to delete all of my Koda Kumi, Perfume, Ayumi Hamasaki, and Okui Masami music. I even deleted some of my lesser-liked Sailor moon music (only due to space. one song was 3 minutes long and 15 MB. I was just like “not even for you sailor moon”), which I never would have done 2 months ago.

It’s especially strange because not only did I delete these songs, I did so to make room for classical music and jazz.

I think my interests in everything are just changing. Like, a month ago, if I saw the Keiko Kitagawa or Ayaka Komatsu was in a new jdrama, I would be like “MUST SEE” now I’m just like “oh. hope it goes well for her career, maybe she’ll do a PGSM get together” and that’s the end of it. I don’t check out her blog as much anymore either. Not to say I’ll stop watching dramas altogether, especially not the korean dramas. I have grown up on those horrible, but lovable, korean soap operas.

I’ve noticed the change in anime I watch too. Usually, I don’t go out and look for anime to watch, more like I stumble upon it, decide it’s interesting and watch it. I don’t seem to stumble as much. I’ve been perfectly content with my few favorite series: (God I sound like a mainstream whore) Utena, Sailor Moon, Fruits Basket, most Clamp works, Peach Girl, Pretty Cure, Shugo Chara, Love Hina, Shin Chan, and Miyazaki films. And also “Bitter Virgin”, which was the last anime I “stumbled upon”. It’s really quite good. No, not the point… also, it seems like that’s a lot of amine, but in reality it isn’t.

I do like anime some, I’m just not the “die-hard fangirl” i once was.

I am still a manga whore, because I’ve always liked manga better…

I also mentioned in a previous post my clothing style has changed drastically (still wear fishnets though, just not with neon colors) and it has…

Maybe I’m just maturing. I suppose it shoud happen, but that doesn’t make it any less weird for me. I always thought that when one goes through a point of maturing (in terms of likes, dislikes, and clothing) that they never realized it until later, so it seems a bit awkward for me, as I am fully aware and freaked out about it. Like what if I turn into a horrible person as I approach adulthood? How do I know I’m not a terrible person now? What if everyone I know hates me and I’m completely unaware? For all I know, I could be the meanest, rudest, sluttiest girl in school, and be completely ignorant to it all. I doubt I am the meanest, rudest, sluttiest girl in school, but there may be one person that thinks I am, even if everyone else doesn’t. I mean, I’m know there’s a handful people who hate me and my presence, but doesn’t everybody have people that hate them? It’s all very confusing.

Or back to the music thing. The past three years (7the, 8th, and 9th grade) I’ve been very static with what I listen to. I have liked the same music, and then all of a sudden, within the 3 months that is summer vacation BBOOOOMM it all changes. Like my newfound love for the carpenters. I’ve always liked them, but was more interested in bands like MCR, Fall Out Boy, Wolfmother, She Wants Revenge. Jimmy Eat world, and all other  stuff you find on the KROQ station in you car. I still like the bands, just not as much. I still like Panic at the Disco, who up until a week ago I forgot existed. It’s like the only reason I liked them was because they seemed like something I would enjoy, not because I truly enjoyed it. If I had seen someone a year ago who was wearing a Bleach shirt, had a Queen pin attached to their bag, and was singing a song by the carpenters, I would have immediatly thought “Wow. That’s unusual.” I wouldn’t care now. I’d probably just be happy they knew who the carpenters were, and that the fanbase wasn’t dead.

I’m pretty sure I was the definition of close-minded when it came to people and the labels they wear. But it’s not so black and white to me anymore. It’s like, I can like Anime, Queen, The Last Unicorn, Iron Maiden and Mozart if I want to. Which I always did, but I thought it would be too weird for me to admit. Like a goth saying his bedroom is pink. Way strange.

Even my whole multi-colored tights phase. I did like them very much, but after a while it seemed like the only reason I wore them because I should. They were like my signature thing, like Nosukii and her numerous hair colors. I felt like I wouldn’t be myself if I didn’t wear them, so I always did… and then it just got to the point where I was like “why do I wear them? Do I really have a reason, besides liking them a little bit?” Which I suppose is a good reason to wear/do something, because you like it, but after a while I got tired of them. And liking them wasn’t my only reason, like I said I felt it was my obligation to wear them whether I wanted to or not. 

And now, I just don’t care what people think of my interests. I don’t mind saying I listen to Brazilian Jazz, or the Carpenters, or even Classical music. I would have hesitated in April, but not now.

That doesn’t mean I’m going to go out in the middle of senior square on the first day of school and scream “HEY WHO WANT TO LISTEN TO BEETHOVEN WITH ME?????” because that would be just stupid.

But if people talk about aforementioned artists, I won’t lie like I used to.

At least I hope I won’t. I hope I don’t walk to Whitney on September 4th and revert back to anything that has changed in the past 3 months. That would make all my self actualizations pointless.

I also hope I have the decency to show up wearing an outfit without tights, large plastic jewelry, or a miniskirt. 

But I suppose only time will tell. I’ll see what I wear on registration day…Once my braces are off…

STRAIGHT TEETH FTW!!!

Ciao~

EDIT: Forgot to mention that since it has proved popular, I am working on two new chapters of my series of posts “My music is where i’d like you to touch”. The two new ones will be “My Music is Where I’d Like You To Touch at the Prom” which is a list with commentary of songs I’d like to hear at my prom; and “My Music is Where I’d Like You to Touch at a Concert” which will be about instrumental pieces.